Getting to know me as a blogger....

As I have only just started blogging, unless your a friend, family member, or client, you don't know who I am yet, so why would you follow my blog ?

Well let me tell you a little about myself.....

This is me .... Flash. Bang. PoZe. Photography by Alley....

I am Alley... Hi there.. welcome to my world of photography, my happy place where birds sing, flowers dance in the wind, everyone is happy and the sun always shines.



I am forty summit (decided to forget about birthdays after 40), and a devoted wife to my wonderful husband, Stuart, who I have been with since I was 14 years old. He is my soul mate, my world, my everything and without him, PoZers and Flash.Bang.PoZe. would be only a dream. I have 2 sons, both grown men now, but I don't feel old enough to have a 24 & 26 year old, it's scary. I am not a nana yet, but there is plenty of time for that, they need to leave home first !!!! Lol !!!!

In 2012 I completed my Degree in Specialist Media Makeup artistry, teaching me Avante Garde and fashion makeup, Special effects makeup artistry, prosthetic's, wig making, costume design, prop design and creation, hair styling, body painting etc. This is what started my love for the world of photography, even before graduating, I was involved with photographic shoots from fashion to fantasy, Of course, at this point, I had no idea, one day I would become a photographer myself, little own a studio owner, back then, I would have laughed my pants off.....

I spent the next two years, slowly building my portfolio, by working tfp for lots of photographers and models, all over the country. I sold my home in Oxfordshire and moved to Wiltshire, taking on my parents care, full time with my husband. My father had advanced Parkinson's and early onset of Lewy Body dementia, my mother had chronic bi-polar, agoraphobia and virtually zero mobility, due to staying in bed for 3 years. I either cared for my parents, or they would be separated, and put in relevant specialist care homes, one for dementia and one for mental health issues, this would have broke their hearts, being the only child, it was either me taking on their care, or my parents spending the rest of their lives apart, I did what I had to do, I loved them both and they needed me.

My fathers condition deteriorated rapidly after moving, apparently this is common for patients with his condition. It went from the odd forgetful moment to hallucinations, aggression, temper tantrums, not knowing who I was anymore, forgetting how to walk, how to eat, how to wash, simple skills we learnt as children, suddenly a lifetime away.

This was the hardest two years of my life, my mum wanted nothing to do with my fathers care, leaving it all to me and Stuart. Stuart was amazing with them both, so patient, so loving, so caring, he looked after them whilst I built my portfolio, he let me build my dream, while we were living the nightmare...

Two years passed, we gave my father everything he needed, love, care, attention, then he had cancer again, the 12th time, 6 bowel cancers and 6 skin cancers in 30 years, this time they couldn't save him, but it was his time, he was 88 years old, he didn't know who anyone was anymore, he threw tantrums like a 2 year old, he couldn't feed himself, go to the bathroom alone, he fell over 10-20 times a day, it was his time, we couldn't care for him any longer, another few months and we would have been broken, he left this world with rosy cheeks, not a wrinkle on his face, no pain in his eyes, he fell asleep and 7 days later, he passed away.

My fathers life had ended, but I had lost him two years earlier, to the dementia, so instead of grieving, I threw myself into trying to make a name for myself, in the town I now lived, I always believe, that you should take a negative and turn it into a positive, or let the negativity eat your soul.... and become bitter... that's not for me....

I acquired PoZers quite by accident, long story that I won't bore you with, but suddenly I owned a photographic studio, without having a clue how to run one, I knew only a handful of photographers locally, what the bloody hell had I done ?

I didn't know anything about photography, the only thing I had ever photographed, was my children, when they were tiny, I didn't even own a camera, what had I let myself in for? My father had been gone for two days, now I am the sole owner of a business I don't have a clue about.... what did I do to deserve all this ?

It turns out, this dark time in my life, turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me... another negative to turn into a positive...

Want to find out what happened next ?

Read my fairytale in my next blog.. then follow me....

It's full of positivity of how the last two years have changed my life forever....

This blog was to help you understand my journey....

When life seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel, it doesn't mean there is no way out.... it just means the batteries in the bloody torch are low, the wax of the candle has melted over the wick, or some dozy bugger sneezed over the match, that was once lit, the lights there, you just can't see it yet.

I am living my dream....

If you have a dream, don't give up..... mine came true, and more... fight for your future.. you can do this.....





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